My first entry

This would be my first entry to my new,and actually only blog...hoorah!

I met someone on Twitter the last couple of days that has inspired me to start blogging...Thanks MentalStrawberry...So glad you found me :)

Well first off you'll see me and my family (minus one) to the left during Christmas lastyear...

I wan to explain why exactly I am making this blog first off and then I will continue with the whole crap that I am going through today,then day by day.

MentalStrawberry has BiPolar disorder and found me by a tweet I had made about my medication I just recently started taking...She blogs and I absoulutly love her blogs and it seems like it will probably help me to do the same seems how I also have BiPolar disorder with severe anxiety.So thats that and this is this:

I have been on an anti-depressant called Celexa for some months now and for awhile I was taking Lithium as well....Well to say the least Lithium made me numb to everything...I didn't cry for months and is not me,considering my life circumstances...I have reasons to cry and just didn't...Its a weird feeling...wait...or not feeling?

Anyways...I finally made myself get up and go back to my psychiatrist and told him that I refuse to take Lithium any longer..so he took me off and told me to call him in 2 weeks and let him know how I was doing...It took me a month at the least to call and I was having severe anxiety,although not having attacks I get to where I can't breath and what not and that in itself sucks. So I let him know and he put me on something called Abilify which I have now been on for 3 days and so far,I am great! Bought some girly wine coolers lastnight,cooked out and raked the yard...I WENT OUTSIDE! WOOT!

Another thing is that I haven't really been down with drinking this weekend...which anyone who knows me knows thats just not me (neither are the girly drinks eh?) so thats is really nice I must say.

So today has been a great day,I have every intention of cleaning up inside and this evening going outside with the girls,having a wine cooler and watch them ride their bikes and pop their little firecrackers...I just really hope it doesn't fall through...I have a problem pushing myself to hard and then things seem to fall through and I end up not doing it...So I am just going to say as long as I get one of those things done,I am ok and life is ok.

So thats that and I am going to try to write in the blog on a normal basis...I hope is wasn't to horribly written ;)

Thanks for reading my first blog!!!